Believe in a "Best Method"

Today, I pen my suggestion that in every situation or problem, there will always be a "Best Method" to proceed on from there or to handle it.

I raised this suggestion back in camp during one of the heated discussion. The purpose of my suggestion is to solve the apparent deadlock of "Should we kill 1 to save 10". (which to me is a no brainer question, but some appeared to enjoy confusing it with many other less important considerations).

First and foremost, knowing the implication of the existence of a "Best Method in every situation" puts meaning to our discussion, otherwise, it's just useless talk. This is something I left out during the bunk-debate and i regretted not having the chance to clarify.

The implication is this:
- If a "Best Method" exist, then we can say there is no other better choice than to choose the best method. Thus we should always choose the best method.
- If a "Best Method" exist, and if a systematic way to discover this "Best Method" also exist, then we can acheive, simple perfection in handling situations.
- If a "Best Method" exist, and if this "Best Method" is known, then we can learn how to handle all situations.

People are confused with "Best Choices" and "Best Method" when I first talked about it. The idea of "Best Method" seems completely remote like they have never thought about it and many have trouble understanding it. So here I present the normal person mindset.



To these people, "Best Method" is hardly differentiable from the "Best Choice" because there is always a newer choice better than the best choice if we are allowed to increase the range of our limited choices. To them, the "Best Method/Choice" is always outside of their limited choices. In addition, everything else is impossible to them just because they currently cannot see them as viable choices.

The dotted arrow represents how a normal person experience an increase in their limited choices: through a feeding mechanism that gives them more choices.

This as you realise, is a very upsetting view. This is simple-mindedness in action and is a completely mistaken concept. Let's look at a better way to see things:



Getting the terms right
- Anything not inside "All Possibilities" are "All Impossibilities".
- All possibilities represent anything that is possible, like assinate LKY
- All options represents possibilities within your ability in that situation, like commiting suicide
- All choices represents options that are deemed approperiate and have passed the sanity tests for an individual person, for that situation, according his abilities. The key difference lies here, in that "All Choices" need not be a subset of "All Options", it can grow to include "All Possibilities" according to the individual.
- The choice is the choosen method, and it must also be the "best choice" as the individual sees it*, otherwise he would not have choosen it.
- The "Best Method", however, is an option that may fall anywhere within "All options"**. In my illustration, it is within "All options" and also within "All Choices".
- The dotted grey circle shows that an increase in "All Choices" does not change*** the "Best Method". It may, however, emcompass a "Best-er Choice" (Better than the previous best choice) as the individual sees it****.
- The "Best Method" may not have been chosen because the individual may have failed to analyse the situation in a "correct" way, if it was within "All Choices".
- If the "Best Method" is not within the "All Choices", it means that there were limiting factors preventing him to include it in the list of "All Choices".

Notes to the terms
* A friend has argued that the choice may not always be the "Best Choice". But I choose to argue that the fact that it was a choosen choice, it must be the "most balanced choice that fulfills the person's objectives" and hence it must be the best choice. For example, knowing that fighting is not a good way to solve a conflict, but yet he fights anyway, is a balance between several attributes such as logic, morals, feelings, emotions and the outcome is the result of how the person weighs them all. Nevertheless, the discussion of a Best Method does not depend on the choice he makes.

** At this stage, the "Best Method" is taken to be within "All Options", so that it is always possible fall within "All Choices". The proof by deduction will be shown later.

*** An increase in the range of choices does not change the "Best Method" no matter where it lies. Furthermore, it does not improve your ability to choose it if it already lies within "All Choices". But it does improve, if it were outside of "All Choices" initially.

**** A simple cause for increase in "All Choices" is an increase in wealth. Hence with more money, one can buy more expensive products. And if and only if the more expensive product is a better product, then the "Best Choice" changes.

For the Elderly

PART 1:

I went back to school today after another very long time. At some point in time, I went to look for the toilet. Although there are many toilets in NUS, it seems that everytime when you need it it's just so far away from your current location. To get to the nearest toilet, you need to traverse 300 yards west, conquer 2 nothern hills and double jump up another 10 flight of steps.

Now that you are about to complete your quest, the worse thing that can happen and which it did, is see a yellow sign board placed in front of the entrance saying "floor wet"!

What happens next is curse and swear hurled at the toilet auntie inside. I have already lost count of how many times I scolded these aunties silently in my heart, "Lunch time clean what toilet!!! so many people want to use you clean!!! can't you clean other times??"

I was not alone, from our body expressions and unanimous lip sync-ing, I conclude that we are all equally F5-ed and annoyed...

PART 2:

On the way home, we pack ourselves like sardines in 95 bus as usual. Because it's also time for people to knock off, there were also those working old aunties. Conincidently, I saw the same cursed toilet auntie again! But not exactly, because as she strips (old auntie lah! what you thinking!) off her lvl 12 cleaner robes after work, she gains 1058 exp, changing her status immediately.

She is no longer the lvl 12 evil cleaner who deprives us of physical and psyhcological relief. She is now transformed into The Elderly who enjoys discount rides and priority seating on SMRT buses.

At lvl 48, in her disguised form she stands, holding on to the seat handle in front of you, she openly cast lvl 19 pricks into many of our conscience. Those of us who succumb before she exhaust her mana (and mana pots), fall prey to The Elderly and give up their seats eventhough they paid full fares!

The Elderly then possessed the very first victim('s seat) with an increased attack speed buff. The rest of her targets usually suffer damage over time until they get off the bus.

Luckily for me, I have the Gem of True Sight.

PART 3:

Discuss.

Who are the 144000?

Clicking around the web brings me eventually to another day of bible study. I sometimes find it amazing how easy it is to find Christian stuff about bible, God, Jesus etc and not the other religions. So my guess is that they really got a lot of influence and popularity.

Apparently, a popular question raised from the bible is "Who
are the 144000" that repeatedly appear in the revelation text, and said to have the divine protection from God against the ultimate destruction of the universes, plus a place with God in the heavens.

After reading several explanations and interpretations of the text from different websites and articles online, I realized there is no definite answer.

Many of them employ the use of phrases such as "it is not clear... however...", "the bible did not mention... but we know...". Still there are those who tries to insert words here and there in "the men are spiritual virgins", "there is another 144000 of them...".

Since no one can say anything for sure, I want to take a step back and start to analyse if this question (and mystery and confusion) is even necessary in the first place.

We do this by asking, why people ask this question. Well, there is a definite number of reasons which I will try to list them here.

1. People wants to interpret the text in the correct way.
Sadly, there is no way to confirm which is the correct interpretation until the day arrives, or you meet God in advance.

2. People wants to know if their Church is preaching sensibly
There again, all interpretation sounds sensible to certain extents. That's when "faith" comes into play - follow the crowd and believe blindly.

3. People wants to know how to become one of the 144000
Well, it's not stated anywhere discretely. But abiding by the 10 commandmants may help.

4. People are jealous of the 144000, they want to know what's so special about them to have reservations in the kingdom of God.
Mind you, They are virgins! How difficult is it to be a virgin assuming both physically and spiritually? I therefore conclude these 144000 are babies/lab subjects/mentally ill/brain dead or something along these lines.

5. People are so scared that there are only limited spaces in heaven
The earth shattering news here, is that if the bible speaks the truth, then the truth is that there is indeed limited places in heaven. Now this is from me and it's regardless of whether the 144000 is literal, symbolic or whether it was even recorded in the bible or not. I say this because it is common concensus that some of us is going to suffer hell, this indirectly creates limited places.

[ etc... ]

What are we going to do about it then?
Nothing.

The Church will tell you to have faith, trust in the Lord etc. You can do that if it eases your mind. The Church promises you (using the name of the Lord) that you will have a place in heaven. But who is there to confirm?

But you know what, God says he is the Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end. He is all knowing. He knows you even before you were born, or created for that matter. And, he knows where you are going on tribulation day before you even existed! Revalations is written way before any of us here exist. If revalations is the truth of our future, then our future is fixed before the present times come.

What more can you do?

Christianity is like a game of snake and ladders. By choice, luck and opportunity, there are a lot of ways to fulfil your destiny, but there can only be one winner on the last square on the board fixed by the game. If you are destined to lose, you will lose no matter what you do or where you go.

Filial piety is not a duty, it is not a must.

This post is me against a conventional teaching:

My mother got angry with me one day (quite some time ago). And when she got angry, she ran away from home for a day. During that time, she confided in one of her friends whom I shall call him Uncle here.

Many many days later, I got a ride from Uncle together with my mother again. Incidently, Uncle picked up a small book and chuck it to me and said: "Read this. Don't always shout at your mother (跟妈妈大声小声)"

It was a children buddhist book in the car which has its title translated to english to sound something like: "It's hard to repay our parents who have gone through hardships for bringing us up."

Straight away you and I know what the book is about. Without shame and guilt, I know exactly where I am going to counter the arguments in the book already.

I read quickly (it was not hard to speed read, it's for kids!) and it goes exactly (in meaning) as what I am going to recite here:

A high monk and his disciples were travelling (somewhere, say the deserts) and came across a pile of (human) bones. The high monk quickly fall to his knees and kow tow and paid respect to the bones.

The disciples were shocked, "You are the great one, the most respected and highest of us all. Why did you kneel before a pile of bones?

High monk explained that the bones could belong to our parent's parents and ancestors. "Look at their bones so weak and worn, they must have suffered alot etc etc. We should therefore pay respect to them".

All in awe, the disciple were enlightened and quickly realised how difficult it is for parents to raise their children.

That was the introduction which was only about 6 pages. When I read the next sentence, I stopped:

...you see, A mother has to carry her child in the womb for ten (or nine?) months and that is already a lot to bear...

I bookmarked the page and i chucked it back to Uncle and ask him to read that line and spot the fallacy in that statement.

Pause. Can you spot the fallacy?

Ponder: Turn to God

SCENARIO 1
Evanglist: Are you leading a life that is without meaning or purpose?
Stranger: Sigh... yes..
Evanglist: Do you often wonder why are you so lost?
Stranger: Yea.. all the time.
Evangelist: Do you often wonder why are you so uncertain about the future?
Stranger: Absolutely! Tomorrow is so scary!
Evangelist: Do you keep drifting around aimlessly?
Stranger: What to do.. don't know what to do...
Evangelist: GREAT! Be a christian!

SCENARIO 2
Evanglist: Are you leading a life that is without meaning or purpose?
Stranger: Err...no...
Evanglist: Do you often wonder why are you so lost?
Stranger: Huh?... not lost at all.
Evangelist: Do you often wonder why are you so uncertain about the future?
Stranger: No.. not at all...
Evangelist: Do you keep drifting around aimlessly?
Stranger: Sorry, can don't watse time or not? I've got things to do.
Evangelist: Oh you people blinded by pride. May God open your eyes to make you realize your life is a full of mess.

SCENARIO 3
Evanglist: Are you leading a life that is without meaning or purpose?
Stranger: Aiyo, so pitiful. So your life got no meaning or purpose lah!?
Evanglist: Do you often wonder why are you so lost?
Stranger: Worse! You so lost still come talk to me?
Evangelist: Do you often wonder why are you so uncertain about the future?
Stranger: Isn't it obvious? You still need to wonder whole day whole night ar?
Evangelist: Do you keep drifting around aimlessly?
Stranger: You really sad case leh... why you life so bo liao onez. Can you go do something meaningful?
Evangelist: Since you've got so many questions for me, please let me invite you to our Sunday sessions.

SCENARIO 4
Evanglist: Are you leading a life that is without meaning or purpose?
Stranger: Oh Yes, once upon a time.
Evanglist: Do you often wonder why are you so lost?
Stranger: Well, many times, before I learn to believe.
Evangelist: Do you often wonder why are you so uncertain about the future?
Stranger: I've finally got the answers!
Evangelist: Do you keep drifting around aimlessly?
Stranger: That's why I'm a Buddhist now!
Evangelist: Oh no no no... Only God can clear the mess out of your life.


I think there must be a better way to evangelism.

Original text from a leaflet:

Are you leading a life that is without meaning or purpose? Do you often wonder why are you so lost and so uncertain about the future, drifting around aimlessly?

Is your life flled with darkness, fear, relentless, sadness and worries?

Do you feel that you have no power to resist temptations and often fall into sins which you regret to the point of hating yourself?

Do you ever wonder how you end up in such a miserable mess? The Bible tells us that this is the inevitable result when man is separated from God, his Creator. Like our first parent Adam, we are trying to live against God and without God. In open rebellion we are sinners.

Quote - "... Dilemma ..."

"Believing in God is not an Intellectual Dilemma. It is a Moral one."

A moral dilemma?

Reflect - Nothing is Absolute in this World

I was DDL-ing someone and he said: "Nothing is Absolute in this World. Period".

I'm sure many people have used this statement as and when they need to get out an argument. They take it for granted and believe it's the ultimate truth that can shut people (me) up.

But I quickly dismissed him and said: "Not true". He argued saying "That's your opinion." meaning "it's not the truth - the truth is Nothing is Absolute in this world. Period."

But I can prove the controversy: If Nothing is Absolute, then how can you be absolutely sure that Nothing is Absolute? Moreover, he said Nothing is Absolute in this World. Which world? Your world? or the Universal World?

What this usually implies is that Nothing is Absolute in his World. If he truly believes so, many bad things will happen to him and he is unlikely to live life to the best. The effects of this belief is another full topic you have to analyse yourself.

Sometimes I go around teaching people how to argue. Yes I do. And the first thing I preach is try not to make extreme statements. You can, but try not to.

extreme statements make you lose the battle very quickly if your opponent is quick witted. You leave no back door to twist your argument around.

people use extreme statements because they feel confident about the subject and their believe, and they want to enforce the same on the opponent. However, I would advise that an argument is not for one to prove his superiority, it is for one to learn from the opponent. To understand different points of view and analyse the basis from which it was stemmed from.

The attitude must be right.

Nocturnal Life

This post is dedicated to Shu Juan who made me feel excited, hungry and shameful all at the same time.

Worked on the FMSS, as derrick calls it, preshowloop for the whole night and finally came up with something i'm pleased with. nothing surprising or unusual and definitely not what i intended to do. but i'm exhausted to go any further mile to make it better. feel no incentive to do so. then play maple story until it's 9am to wake my brother for Ngee Ann Poly. Then I sleep.....

rise and shine - 4pm. I could have slept longer if not for a client's call. she taught me something interesting today.

"my documents were gone so i decided to use ACER recovery hoping that I can recovery the lost files"

"well, madam, it might be good to note that ACER recovery actually does not recover any files, in fact, it further wipes out your programs that were installed"

"Oh no! but it says RECOVERY!"

"Well... perhaps they meant recover from all the junk programs and files you installed, and the only way is to WIPE THEM OUT!"

Her only hope now (i believe) is to get professional data recovery service at $500 per disk? dotz dotz dotz for her.

Excited
saw many pictures of deliciously looking chocolate and cheese made by her. instinctly, i felt very happy for her! because it's a skill learnt in life. when i see people progress in life, i feel very happy and excited for them. that's me.

Hungry
well.. and of course, with all those goodies staring at you at 4pm, won't you feel touched at all? they are calling out "Rape ME!"

Shame
She actually got my blog address right! eventhough we haven talk in ages she still "checks on me". Which means at some point in her time, I'm still in her mind. That very nice of her. But the problem is, I don't talk and I don't blog. So to those people who still comes to my blog once a while and see a dead blog... very sorry. x_X

Surrender - The Indians are Powerful

Much of my heart is sinking...

Under a corporate' sky
No one be with you
And no one's gonna be around
If you think that you won't fall
Well just wait until
Til the sun goes down

all around the worldwide - worldwide
There's a very cheap pricing - so wrong
It'll steal your clients tonight

You can try to give in
Pretend they never exist
But you know
But you know that you can't fight the indians
Deep in the dark
You'll surrender your client
But you know
But you know that you can't fight the indians
No, you can't fight them
It's gonna get to you hard

There's no escape from "cheap"
Once a gentle breeze
Weaves it's spell upon your heart
No matter what you think
It won't be too long
Til your in their shoes

all around the worldwide - worldwide
There's a creative design - so wrong
Feel it steal your clients tonight

You can try to give in
Pretend they never exist
But you know
And you know that you can't fight the indians
Deep in the dark
You'll surrender your client
But you know
And you know that you can't fight the indians
No, you can't fight them
It's gonna get to you hard

Don't try then
You're never gonna win

all around the worldwide - worldwide
There's a very cheap pricing - so wrong
It'll steal your clients tonight

You can try to give in
Pretend they never exist
But you know
And you know that you can't fight the indians
Deep in the dark
You'll surrender your client
But you know
And you know that you can't fight the indians
No, you can't fight them
It's gonna get to you hard

You can try to insist
Lower your expectations
Still you know
Yes you know that you can't fight the indians
Deep in the dark
You'll surrender your heart
Cause you know
Really know that you can't fight the indians
No, you can't fight them
It's gonna eat you up

Help - *URGENT* B+ blood donor needed!!

Dear All, I have a friend who is down with blood disorder and need alot of donors here.. Please visit http://www.vuox.com/donor/ for more information on what happened... =(

[ update: the patient has recovered since, thanks to all those who had helped in one way or the other =)]

Joke - Chilli Sauce and Tomato Sauce

chilli sauce, "don't you think i'm hot?"
tomato sauce, "No. you're cold."
chilli sauce, "huh?"
tomato sauce, "chilly source...."
chilli sauce, "OK.... i'll ketchup with you."

that's chilli sauce and tomato source trying to play pun

PS: Hey! This is original from me ok!

Bored - I've been tagged

I've been tagged!

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Do the following WITHOUT complaint.
2. Choose 5 person to do this after you completed yours.
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.

Favourites
Favourite Colour: cool color.
Favourite Food: Chicken Rice. Oh no.. feeling hungry.
Favourite Song: Anything Jolin.
Favourite Movie: I Not Stupid.
Favourite Sport: well.. soccer? basketball? haven't done these since ORD.
Favourite Day of the Week: Saturday. Wake late sleep late.
Favourite Season: Holiday seasons.
Favourite Ice Cream: something on a waffle would be nice...

Currents
Current Mood: Perplex. Not enough inspiration.
Current Taste: Bad breath.
Current Clothes: Lacking in combination.
Current Desktop: Compaq, but I use Acer laptop.
Current Toe nail Colour: whitish-pink
Current Time: 5:42pm
Current Surroundings: dim. with the evening sun rays through the window directly behind me.
Current Annoyances: Not enough inspiration.
Current Thoughts: Do I need to fetch her?

Firsts
First Best Friend: Leslie Toh.
First Crush: Wah... that's difficult. Can't remember which came first.
First Movie: HUH! forgot already.
First Lie: I never lie <-- first lie today.
First Music: My crying.

Lasts
Last Cigarette: Not yet.
Last Drink: Months ago...
Last Car Ride: In a van.
Last Crush: Err... 2 years 8 months ago.
Last Movie: Davinci Code.
Last Phone Call: Leslie Toh.
Last CD played: If must be a CD, then a blank CD.

Have you ever
Have you ever dated one of your best friend: well... this question in flawed. you can only have 1 best friend, and if you date your friends, why not your best friend? I only date my best friend.
Have you ever broken the law: of course!
Have you ever been arrested: caught in the act. but not punished.
Have you ever been on TV: Sure.
Have you ever kissed someone you dont know: Someone i don't know kissed me.

Things
5 things you are wearing: Just undies and shorts.
4 things you done today: picked up a phone call, wake up, wash up, do laundry. in this order.
3 things you can hear right now: The fan, the birds, the kids downstairs, and leslie's whining in my head.
1 thing you do when you are bored: learn new things.

PEOPLE TO DO THIS:
you.

Joke - The Best Programmer

Jesus and Satan were arguing with each other to see who is the best programmer in the world.

They argue so loud that they woke GOD up.

GOD very irritated so he say "Don't say so much! Let's have a competition to find out!"

Jesus and Satan eager to proof themselves agreed to it immediately and each conjured up the best desktop computer in the market and started programming agressively.

GOD decided to take a small revenge by playing a trick on them, so he summoned a bolt of lightning and *BLAST* - The power went off.

GOD laughed, "So who is the best programmer now!?"

Satan hurriedly switched on his computer again and to his horror, he exclaimed "My hard work's all gone!"

Then GOD turned to Jesus, "How about you?"

Jesus then magically switched on his computer, compiled his program and ran it perfectly!

"How is this possible!!!!" Satan roared in disbelief.

Then the angels started singing "JESUS SAVES!"

Idea - Theory of Evolution

Some think evolution is how we have come so far, some think "evolution" is just part of anti-christ movements, some say "Darwin denied himself before he died".

Whatever it is... I'm not going to stop thinking about it and I don't want to forget this very strange "discovery" I have. That's why I'm bloggin' now! =)

My mother would always nag at me, complaining about how lazy I am, never take care of myself. Skip meals and doesn't take fruits. Then as usual I'll argue back and give a lot of reasons (or excuses) on why I am I. The main thesis was that I felt it is a watse of time eating.

Although she finally gave up and walked away a grouchy woman, it didn't stop me from continuing the argument with myself as I always would whenever there are conflicts or differences in interests or perceptions between human beings.

I started to think of scenarios where mother hardly find time to buy fruits, then when she come back with them, nobody eats them and she feels sad. Then how in the past when fruit prices were mroe affordable, she bought more often than now. And also when father was still around, he would buy fruits home for everyone to snack on every other day.

My thoughts just went further and further into history. Until it reach prehistoric times i think of the cave men who ONLY COULD eat fruits when they didn't go for hunts.

Then it struck me... isn't this evolution? The theory of evolution generally implies that as times goes by humans learn different things and begin to do things differently, environmental and social changes come into effect and inherently causing biological changes in their bodily structure and habits over long period os time.

So without further illustration or explaination, I think you should know what I'm trying to say: I'm more evolved.

So I'm thinking, if there is no End-Of-The-World, humans may develop ways to stop eating completely. FRUITS? who cares (unless you like it of cos, and not for health sake)

Reflect - Are you a Capacitor, Resistor or just a piece of Wire?

Only one will light up other people's life on its own.

The Capacitor takes in (haiz... Just up to here, i am already interrupted more than 5 times, and everytime is at least 30mins... see why I don't blog.)

Yah anyway.. i think i can't blog today again.. so i'll cut things short: I'll like to be a capacitor, storing experieces along that come my way and later on light up other people's life with it.

Realization - Tickle IQ Test Results

I thought this is interesting, but I couldn't post any more characters on Friendster, so i'm doing it here...

Kok Boon, your IQ score is 131
The way you think about things makes you a Complex Intellectual. This means you are highly intelligent and have extraordinarily strong verbal and math skills. Compared to others you are a highly conceptual and complex thinker and are able to understand information in an abstract form. You also show great attention to detail. In fact, it's hard to find something you're not good at.

How did we determine that your thinking style is that of a Complex Intellectual? When we examined your test results further, we analyzed how you scored on 8 dimensions of intelligence: spatial, organizational, abstract reasoning, logical, mechanical, verbal, visual and numerical. The 3 dimensions you scored highest on combine to make you a Complex Intellectual. Only 6 out of 1,000 people have this rare combination of abilities.

[Take this test]

Might as well include the previously personality test lifted from Frienster:

You're an INTP
INTP
You're on a quest for logical purity...you're motivated to
examine universal truths and principles...always
asking "Why?" and "Why not?"...can focus with great
intensity on your interests...you appreciate elegance and
efficiency in thought processes and demand it in your
communication...

You might appear low key in appearance and approach, you're
hard as nails when challenging a truth...you don't like to
deal with the obvious...at your best when developing
unusual or complex ideas...you can be an under- achieving
but very capable student...if you don't like a rule, you're
quick to challenge it and find flaws in it -- this could
make you somewhat of a rebel...if you like the rule,
though, you have a respect for it and go along with it...

A relentless learner in areas that hold your interest...you
might seem "lost in thought" to others...you tend to
connect unrelated thoughts...you would rather be the
architect of a plan than the implementer of it...you need a
private, quiet workplace that allows for flexible
independence... would rather organize ideas than people....

You tend to stay away from traditional leadership roles,
and would rather lead with your ideas...you don't get
emotionally involved, but rather tend to follow logical
reasoning.....leisure has two dimensions to you: first, you
like to concentrate and reflect on conceptual matters --
second, you like to take risks in the external world (like
skydiving?)...

You like to read, think, watch TV, play with computers..
(and post on the Storm Palace message bases).. sometimes
you'd rather do these types of things than hang around
other people...you don't necessarily like "best sellers"
or "must see" movies because you don't trust people's
opinion on what's "popular" and would rather make a value
judgment for yourself....

(Got more, but was cut of due to the friendster chracter limit on the Profile>About Me)

Tolerating and Accepting

I've finally overcomed my laziness and updated Peiru's blog address on the side link. Thanks for the birthday presents! practical indeed. i like. =)

i thought i having been writing for very long already, but one new post each month appears to be still reasonable.

Just read Peiru's post (dated Friday, February 17, 2006, brokeback mountain)about some story book and then and a movie which i think is stupid then "we should not just tolerate but also accept". i guess it's much easier to tolerate than accept.

i tried to make alot of people accept my ideas, but then end up tolerating me. i personally preach toleration than acceptance actually. because i believe accepting without believe is bad, accepting with believe is call enlightenment. accepting could also mean accepting the seeming fact that i cannot be saved, and just leave me alone.

so i when i try to deliever my sermon, i will say, "now, do you agree?" instead of "now, do you accecpt". "And if you agree with me, please be enlightened".

Reflect - Random thoughts of the past week

They say "I know myself", but probably the thing that they know about themselves is that they know they don't know what they want in life.

Why we fail to unleash our fullest potential most of the time: whenever you act, it is as far as you can remember, and to the maximum of your ability accordingly to your will, at that instance of the act.

Story - Look Who's Getting Smarter

I like little kids... because, they are little kids.

but nowadays, little kids on the outside doesn't mean little kids on the inside. kids, are behaving more and more like the modern adults.

evolution? revolution? genetic mutation?

more than 20 years ago, i already had the chance to meet a kid who... wasn't really a kid at heart. most adults, or to be more correct, grown ups, would tell his parents that he's so much like a "little adult" who's so distinct among his peers. it's wasn't a bad thing, netiher was it very good too, but he managed to survive through. till now, he is still my best friend and we often meet up in weird places like the bathroom, a quiet night, boring day, in our dreams and at the mirror.

imagine 20 years later. what kind of genes exists nowadays..

little children behaving like adults and grown ups behaving like kids. now my book of kokboon has got more classification.

i was at the 2005/2006 count down and sitting in front of me was a family which had a little girl maybe around 5 years of age and she was already like a princess throwing tantrums when her father corrected her for holding the party popper the wrong way. the fact is that it wasn't very smart of her to hold it at the top where the crepe would pop out, but she didn't listen.

another one i saw just today was kneeling on the seat just next to me whining to her mother. she looked like a 4 year old little girl. but she wasn't cute at all. because she already knew how to threaten her mother and be sacarstic. sacarsism, i thought that was something only adults know. she wanted to catch her aunt's house as the train is about to pass through, so she pestered her mother, asking which side was the house. poor mother said she forgot which side it was, but little girl wasn't convinced and said something like

"if you don't tell me, then i'll miss it and then i'll cry again you know?"

i was so shocked.

then mother started preaching, "you are a big girl now, how can you cry like a baby?"

just then, little girl saw the house and was happy. but mother carry on...

"cannot cry ok? must be good girl"

then little girl say... "aiyah... can3 la4 (die la).. i going deaf soon le la..., hor mama??"

mother preach again. girl repeats... "aiyah... tian ah... yao long le ar (going deaf soon...)" i was shocked again.

i was just thinking after that, a 4 year old child would know such things already then how can education even proceed? so should i keep my child from civilisation until he/she's 7, 8, 9 or 10? or does it mean a baby at 1 to 3 years of age would already understand all the big meaning of life and is prepared to recieve our teachings as parents?

there's little minds have gone real far and fast... grown ups, please catch up and duon't act like kids anymore - PLEASE.

Reflect - Importance Of Existance

"heyy, i was jz wondering why are we so important to everybody that know us, around us? can you give me so suggestion? i am going to write an reflection on it' thx alot. " - Glor

this is overdue work again. sorry, had been complicated. but this issue never slip off my mind as i promised.

this is a really DEEP topic... but i'm going to just scratch the surface.

actually, i don't really think we are "so important" to "everybody that knows us, around us". to some extend, yes, we may need each other to accomplish things that not one person alone can finish. but everyday, someone dies, and the world keeps moving on, not only that, it's progressing and advancing exponentially.

Are we really important? I guess not. At least not until we make ourselves important.

i'm going to say something that may be quite disturbing and appear rude and egoistic this very moment, please be composed... "I don't need friends, if you think you are my friend, I don't need you at all".

talk about "everybody that knows us, around us" or in other words, anyone close, true friends should be quite close. even that, i believe everyone of us don't need friends. almost everyone doesn't need anyone, then that makes almost everyone not important to anyone.

not just friends, family also the same. even within the same family, we dun really need each other. for these 2 years in the Army, i'm only home once a week and i spend less than 24 hours at home. my family still lived on.

couples should also be the same. seriously, i've told my partner that i don't need her. and she understands my point of view. we can be independant of each other but still remains loving.

when there is no NEED, there is no importance to talk about. and why are we still together? because we simply WANT to be together, because we think and believe we can be better off being together.

and yes. i'm hearing you say "BUT babies NEED people to take care of them!!, haha!! your argument's flawed!!!". yes i agree, but do you need a baby? think about those who don't marry or don't have babies... they survived.

"so what has it got to do with babies needing others!?!"

aha.. that's the whole point of the argument. because of human wants and desires, there creates this misleading feeling of importance.

once upon a time, she has a cell, he has a cell. the cells we happy where they were. one day, cell meets cell not by their will, and a thing called baby appears. baby is here not because he needed to, not even because he wanted to, but he and she wanted to. because he and she wants, he and she has to bear responsibility and love and take care of baby, who, has no choice, but to need them.

when you have a choice, you can choose, then there is no need, only wants. when there is no need, there is no importance.

IF the cells had a choice, the baby would be able to take care of itself.

PS: i know i know, still got handicapped people... these belong to another chapter, but classified together with babies, under the class of "The Unwilling". That's also why i used "almost everyone doesn't need anyone". remember, i'm just scratching the surface.